Scattered through the three and a half million files released by the Department of Justice are the accounts of Jeffrey Epstein’s victims themselves: their words, their voices.
They are perhaps best summed up in one diary entry: “It is ALL horror.”
The recollections of their abuse in these files are recorded in personal diaries, private messages or confidential legal interviews.
The names of all the survivors in this article have been changed.
WARNING: This article contains graphic content, including details of sexual and emotional abuse
Lauren’s scrapbook
This scrapbook documents one young woman’s encounters with Epstein – we don’t know exactly when but we estimate around 2007.
It includes details of their meetings, trips around the world, and intimate thoughts about their relationship.
It starts with her saying:
Once upon a time, there was a clueless little girl…
Then… what is he doing? He wouldn’t. Mmm… elastic.
Charlotte’s testimony
In interviews conducted by Palm Beach Police Department, unidentified victims recounted their experiences with Epstein and his then-girlfriend, convicted sex trafficker Ghislaine Maxwell.
In this transcript, ‘Charlotte’ recounts her visits to Epstein’s Palm Beach residence in November 2005 – and how Epstein groomed reluctant girls.
Investigator: Tell me about the time you first met Jeffrey.
Charlotte: It was something in high school, everybody was like, trying to make money and at the time I had like two jobs, I guess. That was like two years ago or so… I was 17.
Charlotte: It seems really weird, the whole situation and there were more girls in the house. And then they just told me, just go upstairs, you know, they showed me the room, it was the massage room, like pretty normal… and then he came like, you know, and I gave him a massage.
Investigator: He offered you more money to get naked?
Charlotte: Well, he told me just to take my shirt off… he didn’t say anything else.
Investigator: And did you?
Charlotte: No.
Investigator: And you went more times?
Charlotte: It was like, around like three or four times, and then I just… I was just scared he was gonna do something.
Investigator: And each time he went, did he offer you more money to do more things?
Charlotte: Yes.
Charlotte: She said he would offer me more money if I had sex with him and I said that’s never going to happen. There’s no way I’m gonna do it for money.
Investigator: Talk to me about the third time you went… Obviously, more stuff happened because he paid you more to do more stuff, right?
Charlotte: The third time, it was when I took my shirt off. And that was when he paid me $300.
Kimberley’s journal
One survivor’s personal journal documents her emotional and, at times, excruciating journey through Epstein’s world.
The journal written by ‘Kimberley’ is in a basic code. We don’t know when it was written but we estimate sometime between 2001 and 2004.
No one can prepare you for this shit. I am so f***ing lost.
Jeffrey treats me like I am ‘special’ property
The other girls well some are nice but 3 I hate!
Alice in f***ing wonderland?
In a plane or a yacht. In NY, in DC, at the vineyard. On the island. In Palm Beach. It doesn’t matter. Disgusting pigs.
I feel broken and exhausted. I am so f***ing tired of this sick and twisted ‘game’ that’s causing such physical and emotional pain!
Later in her diary, ‘Kimberley’ detailed what appear to be traumatic experiences of multiple pregnancies.
I think I am going to break. Why would they allow [REDACTED] wait this long? Why would he bring a friend and make a video? I am so broken.
And the procedure was so painful and blood all over the sheets. I can’t play this game anymore. I have to ask Ghislaine for help.
…I am now over 20 weeks with baby. We are certain is his, and I had to go to the Bahamas like this. And for some reason no plan has been made because he doesn’t want a procedure and she does.
I am too young and he is too old! Why is no one doing anything, I don’t understand! I don’t want this! I don’t want another painful procedure but I don’t want this!
That company doesn’t protect kids. They use it to find us. And they are everywhere! I cannot escape!
I am so very exhausted. My body feels so tired. Will I ever be free?
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Rachel’s interview notes
Notes from a survivor’s testimony given to investigators in September 2019 detail her experiences with Jeffrey Epstein and Ghislaine Maxwell from the age of 13 into adulthood.
First met JE & GM sitting at a picnic table with friends, GM walked by with dog
JE came up to meet her
Do you like teachers, classes etc. I give scholarships.
Perfect grooming
GM always there
Didn’t know what relationship was
Kinda became big sis
‘Oh pick you up, we’ll go to movies’
14 years old, 1st time on a flight w/ them to NY
Took me see Lion King
Other people around and other girls
JE and GM took me shopping, picked out what to wear …
…including underwear, white cotton underwear
Looked like little kids.
JE: “You need to learn bout the world & you need know how to do this”
I was a virgin, always wanted to keep my underwear on
JE: “Might as well get it over with b/c/when have a bf you want it to be good”
GM would laugh like she was enjoying it too
Encourage the behaviour or you to do something in the moment
Didn’t think other (so many) girls involved until his arrest in ’08
Thought I was the only one
Not in my own experience did I see other girls have encounters with friends of JE
It would not surprise me
Always instructed, never asked
Instructed to have encounters w/ other females.
Remember seeing him arrested on TV 07-08
Then hearing he got that b******t house arrest thing
Several lawyers victims contact
Told me my name brought up to JE & he said oh she’s grateful for everything I’ve done for her, she won’t talk.
These survivors’ recollections are not an isolated story, they are a pattern. Sky News will continue to comb through the files.
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